“What price to pay for bad wisdom?” asks Suzanne Vega in her song “Bad Wisdom” on the album 99.9 F. Like many songs of hers, this one is giving me goosebumps.

“Mother you’ve taught me the laws are so fine
If I’m good that I will be protected
I’ve fallen through the crack and there’s no getting back
And I’ll never trust whoever gets elected”

I don’t really know this song, as I just heard it for the first time today. But it is chilling me somehow. I think it’s the mother-daughter theme, and the idea that what we’re taught isn’t always enough, or right, or soon enough. The wrong decisions for all the right reasons.

Five more days til I start to write my novel. (!) I’ve been having epic dreams, and who knows what I’ll put in that novel. My plan is just to start writing and see where it takes me. I’m not going to assume that the pages will come in order, or follow the right path. I am just going to write.

One of my goofiest dreams was one in which I was actually deciding what to write about for the novel. I thought it was absolutely brilliant to make my main character a panda.

And not only a panda, but a giant, plush, Littlest Pet Shop panda. That talks.

Yeah… I don’t think I am actually going to go with that one.