Looks like I’m kind of deteriorating. It is very odd, for me.

I feel okay, not sad or anything. But also very low energy. I’m alright when I’m at work, doing my job in a reasonable manner.

But at home, I just kind of do nothing. I know I should do more. Even really basic things seem to be taking a huge effort. I am a little worried. I have a lot of work next week, as I’m running a summer camp. I have to plan all those activities, get materials, snacks, supplies, recipes, and all of that. I feel rather anxious about it, given how little motivation I seem to have for basic things like eating!

It is very weird. I feel fine. Not miserable, not self loathing, not suicidal. Just kind of Bleah. I guess things could be worse. I ought to get right to business, take advantage of all the time I have today. But here it’s after one in the afternoon, and I’m hungry. Haven’t eaten. Sitting in bed. Wasting time.

Hungry. Don’t want to face the messes around the house. Don’t want to deal with the logistics of food.

Definitely not a good sign. Not a great day.