Today I saw my doctor, who is a young-ish man who seems really smart and kind. I trust him, which is unusual for me.

I made the appointment this morning after running to the bathroom to pee repeatedly yesterday and again in the morning — ooh, that burning feeling. If you’ve never had a bladder infection, lucky you.

While at the doctor, I took the opportunity to review my anti-depressants with Dr. Niceguy. It has come to my attention that I am kind of hanging on by a thread lately. Tired, having trouble focusing, doing the minimum to get by, fretful, etc. The good doc has recommended a new medication, and I’m game to give it a try.

It is just so frustrating to feel like you’re stable and then realize that  you have slipped once again. To make matters more freaky, Dr. Niceguy mentioned in this overly casual way that I might have some “brain zaps” due to withdrawal from my current medication.

Uh. Brain zaps?

Apparently this is a “classic withdrawal symptom” from going off my medication. It’s like having little electrical jabs in your head.  Frankly, this freaks me out a little.

But Dr. N said that it wasn’t very likely, and that the new medication can be stepped up a little more quickly if the brain zaps get me, and it would clear right up.

I just hope that the medication works. On the plus side, he said this was a type of anti-depressant that might “make you feel like you’ve had a cup of coffee”. That sounds good!